Remote blogging from the Canvas Cafe where Tantek has invited me to hear a little spoken word. It’s not exactly where I am, on a day when an old friend decided to get engaged, my agent decided to tell me that my book was a step closer to being real and some jerk decided to steal my bike. A day after a weekend of spiritual highs and lows like dragging yourself over gravel. I saw four movies in there somewhere as well.
Things are changing, I can tell. Suzan is moving the last her things in. My transition to being a fulltime writer is almost complete. Spring has technically given way to summer, the season of bright consistency that still seems to be fading before its really begun. It’s my fourth year in San Francisco and in 7 weeks, my 30th on earth.
It all looms up ahead like a party I’m not sure I’m invited to. I feel about a half-mile’s jog before it really happens, a scamper up a long, damp lawn in the dark. It reminds me of June in this city–cold, foggy, a hurricane eye of late fall before the real first act of summer.
I don’t know where I’m supposed to be today, folding laundry like I was before Tantek called, or working as I thought I would tonight, as I thought I should be doing and feeling lousy about it. I ended up here, listening to a helluva great love poem. Right now, if only right now, it feels ok.